In my dream, we hung off the side of an impossibly tall building. My feet tingled the way they do; I am afraid of heights. I turned to her and said, Can you believe some people actually let go? I should have known it was a dream; I was so calm. I should have known it was a dream because were I awake, I would have replied, Can you believe some people don’t. I woke up in my own bed, but the sheets were twisted.
There's a quiet dignity in drowning in the adult swim of mixed drinks alone. No bar tab to sacrifice a credit card toward. No jukeboxes playing for the deaf. No doors coughing you out like nicotine jerky after last call. Alone, you are Poseidon. You’ll pick the Spanish galleon of last night from your throat without searching for snipped strings slumping from your wrists, ankles, and jaw.
A man believes he is walking a dingo because he holds the dog to a leash. The other end of leash stretches as far from the man as dingo can make it go. The dog's tail is a periscope, its ears are erect, its teeth visible. When the dingo spots a toy skunk dangling from the hand of a little girl, its body contorts to a lunging, choking, howling curse.
At 95, she was blind but feisty, navigating her home with one hand on the wall. The teabag had already been boiled eleven times, but she poured me a cup of #12 and demonstrated her new talking clock.
At 101, she sits on the stark white bed in a backless gown and gums a sliver of cheese, at times seeming to forget why. I say nothing. Outside the window, a robin cocks its head and flies away.